you do know i am here right?

im pretty sure you know i read your blog. and if you know that, then of course you would know that i see what you post.
you know, at home, you dont act how you feel. i see you everyday, and youre either half asleep, hungry, in the bathroom or gaming.
to me, your life seemed simple. i was so wrong.
you know that im aware and know who youre talking about right?
just reading, every post that you write. it breaks my heart.
i dont know how to say it to you in person, without making you feel sad or uncomfortable, but i am here.
after you found out that i knew, you said to me
"you know i never would have brought you if i thought you would find out this stuff"
you dont know how much that hurt me do you?
so what if i find out? am i not allowed to know?
maybe you just dont want me to know because you dont want me to see you like that, but you know what?
i dont care. i just want to be there for you.
i try to talk to you, but you just push me away.
youve never talked to me about that stuff, but that doesnt mean that we cant try.
youre important to me. and im pretty sure that way deep down, im important to you as well.
i still remember the nights that i cried myself to sleep and you would come in and ask me what was wrong, if i was okay. that shows you care right?
well i just want you to know that i care too,
i know youre in pain, i want to be there for you, in any way that i can.