today is a very important day for me, today was the day that i had finally knew, i had become a true christian.
when i started going to youth this year, i took in the prayers that everyone gave in and participated in worship, offering etc. but i never felt him with me personally. that was until today.
i guess deep down i knew that something major was going to happen to me today, i could see some small differences in myself that i hadnt felt before.
we sat down, and were in the middle of worship, and i look over and i see hannah, and she was crying.
all of the leaders gathered around her to pray for her, i watched as hannah didnt move, she just sat there, with her arms over her knees and her face buried in her arms. as soon as i saw hannah, and the leaders gathering around here, i started crying. it felt like i could feel her pain, i wanted to be a part of the leaders praying for her, and so i sang my heart out.
Afterwards, hannah got up and talked to us about what was happening to youth assalt, how we need to find our spiritual gift and realise that we are all one body. i took all of that in.
when hannah told us that all the leaders were up there to pray for us if we wanted to, i knew what i had to do.
i got up and walked towards jem, who prayed for me, and made me realise what purpose my spiritual gift served and how i was to use it. i had prayed for myself to understand my gift and i had found it.
that was the moment, my heart suddenly started beating so fast, so many beats a second. i felt this warmth come from inside me and straight to my heart. thats when i knew, it was god. he was there with me, i could feel his presence inside me. i burst into tears, i had finally had my first encounter with god. as i was crying, i finally knew for sure: its god, hes real, he exists, hes praying for me, my entrance into christianity has officially and emotionally begun.
i cant even begin to explain the feeling god had given me, its something that only yourself can understand, it was so overwhelming, i couldnt believe it, god was actually praying for me. me. a person who never really believed until this year.
i never want to forget this day, today was the day i can proudly say and know that i am a servant of god.
for those who saw me in that state, sorry if it scared you :) but im fine really, im more than fine, i just couldnt talk. but thanks for asking.
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