a bunch of stuff

sorry i havent blogged in so long :( i moved houses so the internet hasnt been available since :( i still havent gotten it back yet == using mama's computer atm, theyre watching the unborn atm and cause ive already seen it, too disturbing to watch again AHH D:
okay, where to begin?? hmm i actually have to blog about so much stuff, so much i just want to blog about :( so much on my mind as well :s ahh well gotta start somewhere dont we? :)

10 years fag
okay seriously, what the hell? i thought we were okay? well i guess we atill are, but i guess to you im still your 'special friend' huh? okay dude no, im not that girl anymore okay? ive learnt my lesson, im never going to do that again, so no way in hell am i going to do that shit again. so please, can you just stop it and let us be normal friends? its not right, cause i dont like it and neither does she, kay?
america boy
so... it looks like you broke my promise didnt you? and its worse enough that i had to find out from someone else.. why couldnt you just tell me? it is dissapointing i know, but i wanted to at least hear it frm you. it hurts how that was the only thing that i have asked frm you and you couldnt even keep that.... so i guess what i said to you meant nothing after all?
carrots and homo
are you both alright? i know both of you arent feeling the greatest at the moment, but dont worry :) what doesnt kill you only makes you stronger right? :) just try not to think about it and enjoy the more positive things in life? like the friends you have to support you and the long holiday away frm school yeah? it may seem like im on the one side here, but trust me. im not. im here for both of you, because both of you are my friends :) and dont worry, if anyone asks, i know what to say :) just how you guys taught me :)
superbrotherchoiboy
so youre on missions right now in mansfield, i hope youre doing alright :) i didnt actually know how quiet the house would be without you here... but i know youre there doing something important and i support you asll the way :) and yeah, i actually know quite a bit about it now, and even though it hurts me so much to see like this because i just want to see you smile, but, i actually support you through this. because youre not just doing it for yourself, youre actually doing it to prove a point, to show that not everyone is like that. and dont worry, there are many people who stand by you supporting that as well :) missing you.

to my cotton candy stoned face boy:
so i know that there have been many of these to you, but im not doing it because theyre doing it, but because i want you to know how i feel as well. where do i start?
so i only started to get to know you maybe 2 months ago? and i gotta say, we got quite close didnt we? hmm i had a lot of good times with you, there were so many laughs that i had with you and the happiest, funniest memories :) it really showed how much of an important person you became to me..
but now recently, youve been i dont know not doing your usual stuff? its kinda weird, cause you told me that you were never going to do it again, but yeah, youre doing a lot of the old stuff again.
im not gonna tell you off or anything because its not my place to say that kind of stuff.. but still from me, just saying that i can realise and see whats happening and you know not exactly happy? you know ive been having some of those feelings lately... and what youve said has always kept my head straight, but now, if it wasnt for mama and cli, then i think i wouldve already gone down the wrong path... it used to be you that did all this, but now its not :( it kinda breaks my heart you know? :s but whatever you do, im not gonna judge cause its not my place, but yeah, just want you to know :)