Dear S,

supp :)
i just want you to know that you dont have to worry anymore.
because im fine now and this time, im pretty sure i am over you.
though i still look at your facebook profile sometimes to see what youve been doing, i think ill be fine :)
i was with you afterschool on friday, and i could tell that you were keeping your distance from me because you didnt want me to misunderstand and didnt want to promote those feelings i had.
before you met up with us, our friend told me that you were worried whether you should be doing that event with me because you didnt want me to continue having those feelings for you, cause you know that you would hurt me. but you still said that if i wanted to, you would. that made me happy, to know that i still had you as a friend.
just rest assured now okay? im not like that anymore, because ive realised that there are alot more important things that i need to be thinking about. i guess ive always known that to me, my friends come first.
you know if it wasnt for that friend, i dont know where my mind would be right now, i think it my mind would have exploded and gone off to do stupid things. she really does mean the world to me, though it doesnt seem like it now. but she is.
after all this drama, i hope that me and you can actually be friends, normal friends. i hope that one day we could even be close friends, even a friend that i could turn to for guy advice. though i still dont have an answer from you as to why you did what you did that night, im not gonna ask to know, because it doesnt matter. though everytime i see a couple, whether in a magazine or in a movie cuddling next to eachother, i do think of that night. i guess that would just be one of those memories that you will never forget.
in a way, you have made me into a stronger person. with A, my heart was broken and scarred for a long time, but you had healed it, and you were the one who broke it again. but im glad to say that the one who healed my heart this time wasnt another guy, it was friendships.
in these past few weeks since that confrontation, ive tried so hard not to cry in front of anyone, not even in front of my best friends, all they could do was comfort me. but at that time i didnt want comfort, i wanted you. but now, i dont think i want you like that anymore.
every night, its bed time and i lie on my bed, i cant help but think about everything that was bothering me. i used to lay in bed and think about it all night, losing sleep.
but its different now, i used to be a girl who was always happy and didnt have any problems or dramas, who smiled everyday.
i know im not that girl anymore, because that girl didnt have any troubles. that girl always had a reason to smile because she was so happy with her life. that girl is long gone, she left a long time ago.
as a matter of fact, she left the day her heart broke, which was the end of april 2010, with A, who i still have to see cause of family friendships.
but all in all, im glad to say that everything will be fine. thankyou for giving me the happiest memories ive had, thankyou for giving me feelings i hadnt felt in a while, thankyou for making me laugh, thankyou for always watching out for me, thankyou for being a gentleman, thankyou for always coming when i asked you to, thankyou for never letting me down, thankyou for cheering me up when i sad, thankyou for comforting me and staying with me.
in all my life, youre the first person who has treated me how an actual girl should be treated, maybe thats why it was you. i hope to find someone like that so i can see how amazing a person can be to another. thanks for showing that to me.