overreacting

i look back on just a couple of hears earlier and i think to myself..
what the hell is wrong with me? why would i do that?
maybe at that time, you still thought the world around you was crashing down...
maybe at that time, you thought you were replaced by someone else..
maybe at that time, you couldnt understand what was happening...
maybe at that time, you didnt know what he was planning to solve this...
maybe at that time, you didnt know he was sorry..
maybe at that time, you just missed him, but you didnt know it.

after a whole double period in the morning of wagging school to go hot pot at mamas, because of feeling like crap, where all that was going on in my head was the hurt i felt, where it hurt so much to the point you couldnt look at him in the eye.
recess was when someone broke through my brick wall mind of being unreasonable and showed me how it really was.
i tried to see through my thick fog of negativity going in my mind and let it out. but they both left.
the whole time, they shared the same look.. hurt.
i think now i can see, whats happening to me isnt the worst it can possibly get, theres another one out there whos having it worse than me. i should be spending my time worrying and caring for her instead of myself.

yeah so i guess mine arent fixed yet, but im sure they can be soon.. i should also take baka as a priority in my life. yes okay from now on, my priority. its fixed.