whats happening..

you can tell by my face how uneasy i feel..
it feels like no one can help me, all they can say is "its okay, dont worry, its fine"
theres nothing else to say, because there is nothing anyone could possibly say.
i still decide to tell them because i know its what i have to do, i never keep anything from them, because theyre pretty much my family. but what am i supposed to do when i know how dissapointed they feel when i do tell them..
im not sure how it is.. but i know i cant rely on them to fix me and get me back up on my feet again every time.
it seems like i can never get a period in my life, where i am truly happy..
its a tragedy after another.
i cant help but think and think and think.
i feel like theyre not there for me anymore unless i go to them..
it feels like they have all left me, and ive been abandoned.
on my own, by myself, with no one.
what happened to those days when everyone was there for one another.
it seems like everyones attention has been focused on something else, i want them to be happy, and i can understand why were all there for one, but..
because  i dont say anything about whats wrong with me, that it is assumed that im completely fine?
i didnt think i needed to say it, for them to know.
all of you used to be able to read my like that, i didnt even have to say anything and you would all automatically know im not okay.
well now, im not okay, im a million times past okay, and yet no ones come, the ones i waited for to come and be with me, theyre not here.
they never came, after months of waiting, even until today, they never came.
do i have to tell you directly whats wrong for them to know?
right now, the only person thats here for me, is me.
looks like im all alone in this world now