using a sunflower to make your decisions.

do i tell them? do i not tell them? do i tell them? do i not tell them?
every flowers' petal i pull off, its one of the two options, i finish the flower, and pick another one :/
i think i know what theyre gonna say..
'i didnt think youd do that...'
'woahh thats surprising'
'did you do that because youre sad?'
'i thought you stopped'
'what about all that stuff that happened at the beginning of the year?'
i dont want judgement. people do what they want.. does there need to be a reason?
does it have to be because of your feelings emotionally?
does it? i dont feel like explaining myself to you guys yet..
ill tell you when i want to tell you guys